Make Me Skin And Bones: Archive

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As much as I hate my mother...

her not caring enough to feed me helps in the long run. Thanks mom? On a side note, does anyone know how many calories vodka has per serving? Stay Foxy.

Jan 30th

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Birthday Dinners=Living Hell

Best friend had her birthday dinner today at The Cheesecake Factory. If you aren’t aware, The Cheesecake Factory is renowned for their overwhelmingly huge portion sizes. So, I got myself a club sandwich, ate half, and thought I was in the clear. But no. They come out with ice cream and cheese cake, and everyone is digging in and I can’t just…. not eat. Purged it all. Feeling...

Jan 28th

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Cleansing

Going on a liquid/made up of mostly water food diet for the next couple of days, plus an energy bar or two to keep me going.. I can’t believe how far I’ve let myself go…. This ends NOW. Stay Foxy

Jan 26th

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Mother won't feed us.

So I guess today is a negative calorie day. Biked 2 miled at the gym and did an ab circut. Feeling very dizzy and jelly like. Stay Foxy.

Jan 3rd

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Got a gym membership for Christmas.

Not sure if I should be excited, because it’s open 24/7, or pissed, because my mom thinks I need to go to a gym. Anyways, biked 6 miles yesterday, then did 15 minutes of cardio. Then today, my mom, sister, and I met with a personal trainer who helped us work the machienes. Getting all of this holiday meat off is gonna suck. And the gym is gonna be packed for all of January with everyone who...

Dec 26th

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I AM A FAT COW

This stops NOW.

Dec 21st

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Haven't been on here in a while...

Honestly, I just haven’t felt the need to be here until today. I’ve found that my cutting, depression, and disordered eating habbits follow the same cycle as my Tourette’s does. If you don’t know about Tourette’s, it kind of cycles; I mean that, there will be like, 3 months that I’ll twitch really bad constantly, and then 3 months where I’ll only...

Dec 19th

Hope everyone is doing well.

I’m not. Thank you to all of my readers, for caring about me, for not judging me…. For everything. I hope everyone has a happy Thanksgiving. Please eat some turkey. Every singing one of you deserves it. Goodbye.

Nov 23rd

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So, it's been a while...

because, quite honestly, things had been… okay. HAD been. Tonight, I broke a 1 months clean streak from self mutilation and starving/purging. I’m sorry. But, best friends who know about your self esteem issues shouldn’t spend the whole night calling you “ugly” and “bitchy” and “stupid” and telling me to shut up everytime I open my damn mouth....

Nov 12th

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"Manorexia"

Today, I found out that my new guy friend struggle’s with “manorexia”. I dunno, for some reason it made me really happy. I mean, I know I’m not alone, because out my 84 followers… but, it’s nice to have someone really there, infront of you, who knows what you’re going through, even though he might not know it. Haven’t lost any, haven’t gained...

Oct 9th

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Fucked up real bad.

I’m about to have a mental breakdown, I don’t know what to do. I don’t handle being in trouble well. I’m absolutely dreading tomorrow. I don’t deserve to eat. Food should go to the starving children who don’t have any. Not a fuck up like me. Stay Foxy.

Oct 5th

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I swear to God, I will never eat again.

I will become so small and fragile. I will wither away into nothing. I will float away with the wind. And, you will be so fucking sorry for how you treated me.

Oct 2nd

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Oct 1st

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Homecoming Tonight.

I’m back down to my lowest weight. And, I didn’t have tp purge to get there…. So, I’m pretty happy. We are going to dinner tonight at some fancy Italian restaurant. Kind of nervous, but hopefully all of the dancing and after party-ing will burn off anything I can’t get back up…. Hope everyone is doing well. <3 Stay Foxy.

Oct 1st

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"You look like you've lost weight." -Sister.

SCORE. 14 hours of fasting down. Trying to get over the funky after taste the Arizona Diet Green Tea has. Measured my thigh width…. and they’re smaller xD The smaller I get, the bigger my ambition grows. Stay Foxy.

Sep 25th

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Homecoming in a week.

Bought my dress today. I went down a size, but of course my DAMN BOOBS prevent me from buying small dresses. Does anyone know any workouts that can help shrink them? I’ve heard push-ups, but I don’t want bulky arms… Leave suggestions if the ask if you have any. But, back to the dress… It’s cute. Fits perfectly. I’ll be happy when it’s a bit loose. So,...

Sep 25th

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He's talking to me now..

“If I know one thing about girls, it’s that is you think they’re upset, just leave them alone. I’m not mad at you.” Wow. That would have saved me a lot of blood if I had known that earlier… When did this situation turn into me apoligizing for nothing, again? Oh, that’s right. EVEN WHEN I’M RIGHT, I’M WRONG ANYWAYS. Purged the pizza I ate at a...

Sep 14th

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It's been four days...

since I accidently let it slip about my cutting and recent purging too him. 4 days, and he won’t talk to me. I want to purge until the lining of my stomach is completely gone. I want to starve until my bones whittle away into nothing. I want to cut until I bleed every last drop of blood. I want to disappear. This is getting so much worse. I hate myself. Stay Foxy.

Sep 14th

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ebonylovesivory asked: How did you purge, I've been trying to for a while now and nothing comes up ugh :/

Sep 9th

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Purged for the first time...

My throat is killing me, my makeup in running, and I can’t make the funky taste in my mouth completely subside. But, homecoming is in less than a month. I have to lose this weight. I just have to. Stay Foxy.

Sep 9th

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It's like I can feel the blood pulsing through my...

I’ve never self harmed myself just to do it. Everytime I do it, it comes after something that makes me upset…. Latley, though, it’s just like… I feel like I need to to it. My body gets hypersensitive, almost like I just NEED to do it, for no reason… What is wrong with me? Stay Foxy.

Aug 23rd

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The Black and White Ribbon Project →

notitlenecessary: boneskinthin: So today I was thinking about how cool it would be to meet the people from all these weight-loss tumblrs over the summer, to congratulate them on their effort. And I had an idea. What if we could all create a way to identify ourselves to each other this summer, a universal symbol for people with weight-loss tumblrs? There must be tens of thousands of us,...

Aug 20th

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Shopping day with my skinny friend...

It actually… didn’t go as bad as I thought it would. We got hit on by the guys at Great Wraps like usual, but I’m pretty sure that they only pay attention to me because my friend in BEAUTIFUL. But, I’m down a size in jeans, which is great, and the guy working the dressing rooms had this to say to me: Guy: “So… are you in high school?” Me: “Yup,...

Aug 16th

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Homemade Nachos and a Salsa rant.

260 calories, super delish. How to make: About 24 tortilla chips (140) 1/4 cup of cheese (110) 2 table spoons of HEB salsa (10) Pop in the microwave for 30 seconds, and pair with a diet soda, tea, or ice water, and you’ve got yourself a yummy snack. I usually eat this when I’m breaking a fast. This, plus a few grapes, will be the only thing I eat for the day. On a side note: Salsa is...

Aug 8th

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Up and ready to go at 8 A.M.

My sleeping habits have effectivly turned nocturnal…. Woke up at 3 A.M after 5 hours of sleep, took a walk with my dog at 7 (apprx. 1 mile), took a shower for the first time in days (ew, ever have one of those weeks where can’t even get up to shower?), shaved my legs, and am feeling really, really good! I’ve been doing bad these past couple of weeks, but my mom is back to...

Aug 8th

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Sonic Ice

This shit has become my best friend when I’m fasting…. Haha, anyways, how is everyone doing? Leave me something in my ask, let’s have a conversation xD Stay Foxy.

Aug 6th

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Instability.

I’m so incredibly instable right now, it is taking everything I have not to jump into my car and just run myself off of the road. I can’t do this. I’m feeling way to much, and every single fucking thing sends me into this deep rage that has me pulling out my own hair and clawing at my skin. I just want to fall into an endless sleep; no feelings, no nothing, just pure darkness...

Aug 4th

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Biking vs. Running?

Which is a better cardio workout? If anyone could let me know, I’d owe you a fox. Stay Foxy.

Aug 3rd

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Can't sleep.

You know you have a problem when intense sleeping pills leave you awake at 4 o’clock in the morning… I’m feeling incredibly manic. My “friends” bailed, so I didn’t get to dye my hair… But, I’m still feeling incredibly impulsive. My blood is pumping with excess adrenaline, and I am itching to do something - anything - to feel satisfied. So,...

Jul 31st

sexdrugsandthepursuitofhappiness asked: if you feel like you can't take her up on the offer, you can take me up on it. xoxo

Jul 31st

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Whataburger.

Stop being so fucking delicious. I was doing so well today until mother brought you home… Ugh. My best friend’s mother saw my scars. She gave me her cell number and told me to call her the next time I felt the urge. I wish I could take her up on that offer. My own mother hasn’t even noticed. I’m feeling quite impulsive. Going to dye my hair blue in an hour. Whoo. Stay Foxy.

Jul 31st

Anonymous asked: I'm sorry you didn't have a good birthday :( things will get better soon I hope(:

Jul 28th

Maybe I should stop being so dependent on the...

But really, what do you expect is going to happen when you call me a cow on my BIRTHDAY and then you kiss my best friend on my BIRTHDAY. Sorry, I’m not made of stone, I have feelings, too, and you just shattered them… On another note, I really need to find a way to hide these scars…. People are starting to get suspicious. Stay Foxy.

Jul 28th

fall-leaf asked: Happy Birthday! I hope it was absolutely amazing, apart from you know what. I completely understand the sister thing, it's the one day you wanna feel super important, but others can always ruin that. Remember that you are very special and unique, :) <3

Jul 27th

imustbethinimustbeskinny asked: Happy birthday dear! That was a bitchy move your mother pulled sorry :( have a decent day regardless!

Jul 26th

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Happy Birthday to me?

Hm, so I’m 17 today… Can’t really say I feel any differently. Anyways, my mom ranted on how she couldn’t afford a good birthday present for me this year, but then dished out over $100 to dye my sister’s hair on my birthday… I’m not greedy or anything… but yeah, that stung a little bit. Leave me some birthday wishes, lovelies?! That would make me feel...

Jul 26th

onetweetybird-deactivated201109 asked: It's not a question, but I haven't figured out how to comment on blog spots yet lol...

Aspartame in Diet coke turns into formaldehyde in body acting as a preservative that keeps fat cells where you don't want them

follow me at onetweetybird[dot]com/tumblr[dot]com .. losing one pound at a time!

Jul 25th

Anonymous asked: Heey, I just wanted to let you know diet sodas are actually worse for you than regular because of the artificial sugars that are in them. There have been a bunch of studies that show the nasty side effects that come from drinking diet sodas and using artificial sweeteners over years. Just wanted to let you know in case you didn't already. Sorry if I'm lecturing or anything, I just wanted...

Jul 25th

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20 pounds in 27 days...

That’s how much I need to lose in how many days… 20 pounds, and I will be at my first goal weight. 27 days, and I will be starting my Junior year. Time to get cracking. My mom will be going back to work soon, so I’ll need to go stock up on some green tea and diet coke. I’ve looked into Hydroxycut, but I’m a teen on a budget, and I’m not sure if I can afford it....

Jul 25th

beautyandthefatbeast asked: Hey, i just started a blog and wondered if you would follow/get the word out there that i exist,

i follow back :) <3

Jul 25th

xtcpopculture asked: you need to be 18+ to buy it with out a prescription, like.. in walmart or someplace like that :) (in the USA)

Jul 22nd

fall-leaf asked: Hey, just wanted to tell you what I know about hydroxycut. I take two in the morning, and then two at midday. I think it's assisting me, and definitely keeps me awake/not full of energy but not dead.
It can make you feel really horrible, I've had severe stomachs pains, nausea and it has made me faint a few times. (I avoid eating, and only drink liquids during the day, sometimes...

Jul 22nd

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If anyone has any information about Hydroxycut...

Like, if it works, where I could get it, and do I need a perscription? I just saw a commercial for it, and I dunno, I need a little boost, because what I’m doing now isn’t working… So yeah, if anyone could just leave me some info. about it in my ask, that would be great, I’d love you forever. Stay Foxy.

Jul 21st

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Binged so bad today.

I spent the last two days with my best friend, and then started my period. I seriously ate a whole tub of neopolitan ice cream, plus whipped cream. I don’t even know what came over me, I just inhaled it… Urg. On the plus side, I’m starting a week long vocal intensive tomorrow, so hopefully that will take my mind off of things. Stay Foxy.

Jul 18th

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Woke up early today

Just got back from a 30 minutes jog. I’m dizzy, sweaty, and my stomach is screaming at me for some food. My stomach does not control me. My stomach does not control me. I am not my appitite. I am not my appitite. I can control myself. I can control myself. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will be thin. I will be perfect. Stay Foxy.

Jul 14th

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Cleansing=Fail.

Yeah, I don’t know why I even thought that I could do it… I’ve been doing well today, I’m back down to 1 pound above my lightest weight, so that’s good. I’m drinking a diet coke, but other than that, that is all I’ve had today. I’m in a bit of a jam, you see: If I stay home, I’m able to fast and lose weight, but I’m stuck with my mother,...

Jul 13th

Anonymous asked: is eating alot with little calories in it the same as eating less with the same amount of calories in it? Like I really like salad, but i just eat the greens and dressing, nothing else. Will i still lose alot of weight by doing this?

Jul 9th

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Cleansing.

I’m gonna try my best at a couple days of a water/tea fast and cleanse my body. I’ve been out partying the last couple of nights, and while I’ve had tons of fun and haven’t gained back a tremendous amount of weight, I still haven’t been on my best behavior. Also, the best part and worst part of having braces= getting them tightened. Worst because it hurts like a...

Jul 9th

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Jul 9th

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“If I can’t be beautiful, then I want to be invisible.”

– Invisible Monsters; Chuck Palahniuk.

Jun 25th